getting tooter

haven update my blog for long time cos something wrong with previous template and lazy to change it with my slow slow dialup connection... i cant believe tat i managed to survive on dialup for months...

realized tat i'm gettin more stupid with each day slacked... my brains stagnant and all the neurons are like dialup connections... starting to read books and try play some soduku to train'em up b4 they become like the operating spd of os windows 95...

was going thru the photos in my comp cos mama wan to print the convo photos... now then i realized how fatter I got after these few mths of slacking... my skin is getting so fair tat my mum is so jealous of it and my double chin is getting so obvious... how i missed the days of training like cow for the hockey team... hockey not only leave some happy memories for me but some bad physical effects... my left wrist sometimes can feel the effects of 'feng shi' and feel so sore on rainy days... esp when i eat cooling foods like kangkong on those days... luckily it doesnt happen tat often...

I WANT GO OUT... watch movie, sing ktv, or juz bioing zabo... anything! but cant find anyone else so bo liao like me...... and i oso feel so guilty to be so bo liao when everyone else is working and earning money while im still spending my parents money and carrying a mount of debts...

juz as wat i told a fren this morning... "i am living in my dream, not living my dream"...